I’m home from a week-long spiritual retreat in Grand Lake, Colorado and I feel amazing. It’s been a long time since my heart has felt this expansive.
Between, it was called, and I wondered what that really meant.
“Meditate on ‘Between’ before coming to retreat,” the instructions read. “Write down any dreams you might have.”
…Nothing! No dreams, no big Ahas. Nada, Zip, Zero thoughts other than that’s how I feel right now. Between. My life feels between this and that. My business feels between what and I don’t know. Even my Reiki practice feels between.
“Why did you want to come here?”
The first big question posed to my Inner Teacher at the retreat by my leader Mary Gay. We’ve been working together for over 20 years, so the question shouldn’t have surprised me, but it did in a way. See, I just got a bee in my bonnet and decided it was time to do a retreat since we hadn’t spoken in several years and I felt like I was missing something.
Not so fast missy! The Inner Teacher, Spirit Guides, Intuition is always guiding me. I should know that by now.
“Trust!” was the big answer that came to me. Apparently that’s what I came there to do. Every morning and evening and sometimes in the afternoon we were led through a guided meditation.
Even though I was as close as I could be to Mary Gay, because of my hearing loss, I missed most of the instructions or completely got them wrong. At times it was actually funny like in my first meditation where I heard “Your head is too small”. “Really? That can’t be what she said” I’m thinking, still in my conscious mind. But the music starts and off I go, my head growing so big that it looks like a hot air balloon and my body is the size of a basket. I float away… More on this later.
So I had no choice but to trust and go with whatever I got every step of the way.
From letting go of old wounds to relating to the throat Chakra in a whole new way and opening the heart Chakra. (Ha, I thought it was open.)
Expanding the heart Chakra to a whole new level made me realize how closed most of us really are.
The bottom line is, I have a new directive for the year beyond trust and that is that I’m a leader and it’s time to take the lead. Time to step into my role as High Priestess (whatever that means). But be cautious and lead from an open heart. Even beyond that – everything I teach is to be about opening the heart.
So here I am. Opening my heart to you.
What is opening your heart these days?
Let me know what practice, what story, opens your heart below.